Everything is Changing
Mood:  special
Well i know once again its been like an eternity sence i wrote..but i doubt ne one reads these... you latly ive been thinkin whats realt important to me and every day that goes by i relize how much everything and everyone is changing...ive done some stuff in the past little while that i regret and wish i could take back but i know i cant...Fights arguments loss of friendships that were never worth my time in the first place..ppl's true colors and true personalitys come out and its like u wish u never met them at all...the one thing i can say that has haappend to me in the past while is my boyfriend who I love like there is no tommorow..no matter what I do, or what happens hes always there and has an oppnion even if i dont like it i know hes right cause it seems like hes been rite all along..I thank god everyday i have him and sometimes i wonder what ive done to deserve him.. Well thats it for now...xoxoxox

a LONGGGGGGG time sence i wrote
Mood:  happy
Well hello...Its been months sence i wrote im not doing a very good job at this site thing but meh give me a break not like ive been busy. My summer started off in the worst way possible i got arrested with heidi. Long story as to why. So sence that date i have been to court 3 times and lawyor meeting and everythign else it sucks ass. Also my birthday. and it is the birthday that im never gonna forget I woke up unable to find my pants ahahah... one of my finer moments i spent some time down at my cotage and some other time at the cottage and more then my fair share at the beach muahahah but as of this moment i have to go pick up my nephew from day care b ut ill write again tommorow.... later hosers..xoxoxoxo

What an awsome week
HEY ALL...sorry its been so long been real busy latly.. so I had an amazing couple of days well i was gone...and then last ngiht at the fireworks with everyone... just toped it all off ahaha untill the THREE incadentsone being with the drunk man came stubling down by us soo were sitten there.. and he comes up to by my glow stick and i was like sure why not then he hugs me and trys to kiss me i was like ewwwww old man germs soo I turned my head luckly he only got my cheek and then just kinda pushed him ewwwww i felt dirty ahahahaha and then we were doin so good diddnt get in a fight or ne thing else well then we HADto stop at wendys and it begun.. we got in a fight with some dumb girl cause ohh we butted like comon now go back to kindergarden. Then after was all said and done on the way to wendys some guy deffinetly humped the car.. ahahah what a night then i had the gurls up... what an awsome week tho well thats all for now... write soon.. Love Nicole xoxoxoxoxo

well not to be to blunt or anything
Mood:  crushed out
hey all.. i know its been a few days sence i wrote.. but alot has happened.. 2 more days untill candis wedding and tommrowo morning im going shopping for the gift.. WHAT THE HELL DO U BUY.. lol im realy not good at this.. so u know what the last few days ive been so torn between friends true friends real friends.. and ive had ppl yellin at me tryin to tell me who my friends are and who arent well u know what i know who my friends are and i dont lie nor make shit up i got no time for 2 faced ppl or ppl who talk about there friends and then fukin DENY it right to there face and u know what ppl know when ur lieing the truth come out and it will be that much worse.. this he said she said thats childish bull shit wich i got no time for so this is what i think. Ither u are my friend or ur not u dont like some thing about me or the way i do things fukin deal with it or dont call me its as simple as that.. u know my whole life ive lived to please other ppl or better yet meet up to other expectations well now what i have to say to that is i am who i am if you dont like FUCK YOU.. and today well u know what i met someone today who realy has cought my interest... lol ill let you know how that turns out i mean im soo torn between 2 guys already im just gonna kinda play it by year. but i should get goin i only decded to write right now cause I couldnt sleep i have soo much on my mind im stressed right to the max.. but stoopid shit I have to deal with oh and christopher sence your goin back home and all ill miss you and make sure you come back to visit... well nite nite all shopping first thing in the morning.. xoxoxoxo
nicole

TO all MY gurls
Mood:  happy
hey all... ok laitly ive been going on about my true friends who they are like yea a friends a freind but u only have a few that you can trust depend on, say ne thing to and not have judge you u know i look at all my friends and i love all my friends like there is no tommorow they are my life, But i have a very selected few that have all these charactoristics in them i look and shavon what cant i say about you i love u like ur my sister and weve been thru it all sence we were 3 and even tho we dont see each other everyday i still look at you as my best friend.. and we both are doin are own thing now with boyfriends and jobs school, and i know the next few months are gonna be the hardest thing ull ever go through but i want you to know ill be there with you every step of the way for now and forever untill they write my name in stone.. ur my best friend. And tasha Me and you are soo unbelievable diff i like the night life you dont i drink amonst other things but at the same time saturday night and u know what i thought u completly back stabed me and had no idea how wrong i was u wrote about me on ur site and i quote( Nicole: Well honestly, from the day I met you up til now, I think of you as the same person as I did before. Just a fun person to be around, a great friend who I'll say has a strong belief in whats wrong and right when it comes to someone being a friend, even if ahh u may occassionally talk to the person. I think your one of the few people I can trust and even if you put me in awkward situations (ah hem... i.e. sayin words) ahhh who cares? its all in havin fun. I love ya and hopefully our friendship'll last for lifeAnd tasha and u know what even tho u think i dont call u or call u to come party with us u think i dont want you around BUT UR SOO WRONG i wouldnt have it ne other way besides you can get into the bars with us.. and lol we have been through it all from getting almost arrested but not 1 or 2 or 3 but 4 cops lol 3 cars.. u stand up and say exactly what im thinkin when i cant myself U never let me down and u have no idea how much i love you we will be friends for life no matter what happens or where we end up... Friends for life.. and jenn fukin mad memorise u and me and jacquie 3 muskaterrs u know what i love u like theres no tommorow u have been there with me for the last 4 years theres not 1 thing tragadee in my life that you havent been there for lol and of coure cruzin for the men ahah literly younger then 19 with FEW ACCEPTIONS ur too young LMAO...u know u practicle live here uver been with thru well major major brake ups in my life u knwo more then ne one else and no matter what happends we'll always stay best friends... and jacquie where do i even start with you U realy do live with me well u live right beside me well 1 door and our houses conectlaf!!! uve been there thru every fight argument misshap and tragadee ive went thru sence grade 7 weve seen friends go to jail get beat down, weve been followed road trips ur there with me and even when i cant walk lol ur mommy takes care of us lol and when she goes away my dad feeds you lol... we always talk about what if what if i wasnt here or up and moved away and no matter what we'll be friends for life ( and then theres my crew CANDICE SHAWNA JESSICA u guys are other true friends...and if your not in this dont take affence to it i do consider u a friend... just these few ppl i have had alot of problems with latly and it needed to be cleared up that and if i sat here and wrote about all my friends ide be here forever.... so this goes to all my friends Thank you for always being there weather it be in fights arguments or just through the rough times...
nicole Xoxoxoxoxox

AHAH LAST NIGHT WAS AMAZING
Mood:  don't ask
Well what an amazing night last ngiht was I just cant get over it I dont remeber commin home or how i got home that was just wow.... AMAZING NIGHT my crew's my crew that will never change.last wild one for a bit... AHAHA partyin outside willy saving me from falling down the hill and dancin indian style CHYEA CANDI.... and then this mornig sooo hung over and was in soo mcuh pain mysetious bruises ahahah comical not being able to get my pants on wait was it becaus I WAS STILL DRUNK... YUP and then today well u know what walkin awa from that house i felt i was walkin away from a part of my life and u know what pppl need to relize who there true friends are i relize mine now... but u two girls and u know who u are I have no time for you and when ur done playin childish game u let me know... and ill let yea'come party wit me aahahah now im lieing ne ways NOELLE AND COURNTNEY-- OH yea we are soo going camping and sarah tonight was awsome its been so long sence we chilled ohh mad times.. but u other girls like candi said when u see me there will be no smiles and u are a loser and will always be that way.. so some last min words GO GROW THE FUK UP.. and thats all for now ladies and gents... nite nite XOXOXOXOX
nicole

ahaha All Gucci... just quotes TONIGHT SHOULD BE AWSOME
Mood:  mischievious
100% Real.100% better than your girlfriend! To all of the haters: For every ten words you say, I have one word for you: JEALOUSY. No skank can outdo me. I've got :GUCCI'S: styles & :TIFFANY'S: class, if you don't like my attitude, you can kiss my *PRADA* @$$! ahahah I just liked the way this sounded laf!!!!!
I think i have A.D.D. KNOCK KNOCK who's there HOE hoe who HOOOMEWRECKERS! I'm the "greatest bit** alive." You don't like me? shove it *Manicure...$150 *Versace sunglasses...$275 *Black Armani peasant top...$300 *Donna Karen hip huggers...$1,000 The look on your boyfriends face as I walk by: PRICELESS *STOP TRYING TO HURT MY FEELINGS, DUMB BIT**es...-nothing- DENTS MY EGO or even PHASES ME* While you sit pawing through comeback books I am laughing at your stupidity. Go f**k yourselves.Sometimes i get this allergic reaction when sluts walk by *TWITCH* *SCRATCH...
you Act like you the badest bitch in this place, but if i saw you in the street ude be the same discrsse, You aint got shit on me so just give it up we get you dont like us and we dont give a fuck.
lol can you tell im board here lol no actually im just getting ready to go to the beach woo hoo and also doing laundry ahah go me!!!! Then tonight the last real wild one...Candi the best of luck darlin with everything marraige and the new lil baby awww... ur gonna be the best mommy ever.. tonight should be awsome ahaha well thats all for now all...
nicole xoxoxo

never relized how much i missed........ him
Mood:  party time!
hey well what a day... im so tired cause ok last night im just doozing off and at 1:28 am my cell phone rings and who was on the other end someone i diddnt expext... but i ended up talkin to him till 4 o'clock this morning and i relized i never new how much i ealy care about him WEIRD and then i was wokin up by brion well he was saposedly doing his comunity service work yea good job on that one there bud....lol then i tanned most of the day and, then went off to work tonight and then i had to go out to highfeild then last of all i ended up talkin to jenn at her work. Then i came home and yet again was talkin to rob laf!!!And now im sitten here with jacquie and getting ready to go up and go to bed SAWEET... then tommorow night PARTY WOO HOOO...... gonna be A start to the best summer yet.. ne ways that all for tonight ladys and gentlemen..... nite nite xoxoxoxoxoxoox
nicole

AHAHA SOME PPL CALL ME A BITCH AND HERES WHAT I THINK
Mood:  chillin'
When I stand up 4 myself & my beliefs they call me a b!tch.When I stand up 4 those I love they call me a b!tch.When I speak my mind,think my own thoughts or do things my own way they call me a b!tch.Being a b!tch means Im free 2 be the wonderful
I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that.So try 2 stomp on me,try 2squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.U wont succeed.& if that makes me a b!tch,so be it.I embrace the title and am proud 2 be ONE!

Where did this come from some ppl think,call whisper and utter this about me and my oppion on it is and if ppl dont like it TO BAD...ahahah AND????

WHAT A DAY
Mood:  cheeky
Well today was awsome.. up untill the guy in the car like holy fuk who does that like fukin retard.Seriously ok so im commin home from hali alone at 11 thonihgt and this stoopid guy whom i had an altercation with befor follows me and swirvs toward me U FUKIN MORON GET A LIFE. not to mention his car was a peice of shit... not that it matters about the car but seriously but on the upside candis party is 2 days away and its are last big one befor the big dayi cant wait... and me and my gurls finally got everything straitened out which made my day that much better.Then saturday IS THE BEACH DAY anyone ho want to come is more then welcome beach party all. And earlier today ahaha i wnet tanning even with the sun shining like it was. But its all good. Well thats all for now im off to bed soo ill write soon nite nite
nicole XOXOXOXOXO